With about 1 and half months left until my STPM result day; The BIG result day, I have finish the last 1 and half month like a total slump. Most of eating, the Internet and televisions and half of the time day dreaming. Although I did take up a job as a waiter in a local cafe, but its a night job. And due to bad business this month, guess what I did there, day-dreaming again. (fyi, the restaurant I work there is filthy and expensive)
My typical day-dream happens to be looking at the road, the roundabout opposite the restaurant I work. Thinking about what my result is going to be, what to do with my future, what if that, what if this and what happen to my friend and friends, did I lost contact with them or what; so much and so forth. Its really mind-torturing than you think. So excruciating. Why can’t I help it when I start thinking these stuffs. Gosh, my time is a lot to kill, and I spent them day-dreaming =_=
There was a time when I don’t have to think about all these, and ironically that time I don’t have enough time to spent.. Haha, it was when I was still in Form 6. You know, all I have to think is just do the best in your study, don’t think of anything else. Everything that time is ALL about study, study and study related.
Well, I didn’t actually day-dream of useless stuff. I have given a thought of what to do with my tertiary education. What to do if my result turns out less than I hoped for. What to do to wisely spent the rest of the time until to result day. Probably juggling 2 works.
Still, I do hope I still will achieve my ambition in life sooner or later, I think. Like all of millions of people around the globe, I will ultimately still be in pursuit of my own happiness.



